How come there are people in life who know exactly what they want from life? Game plan, life plan, whatever you want to call it, it still bothers me that people have these plans...or rather that I don't have one.
That is not to say that I don't have dreams and ambitions, because I do. I just have no idea how to make those dreams reality, or how to achieve my ambitions. That's why I need help...but can anyone help? I don't know (Anyone reading this has probably got the impression that I don't actually know that much...eeek!).
I had a turning point in my life this week. Or rather, my life started to mirror my revision for my postgraduate qualification- I realised I have given up before I've even started. Sounds defeatist? Yes, I admit to it, but hell, if you were studying the joys of the English legal system, you probably would too.
This time last year, I was slightly stressed about doing my finals at university. Not so much the exams, as I quite liked sitting in the grandeur of the Royal Horticultural Halls at Victoria. Its a great art deco (or something like that) building, with lots of very interesting things to look at instead of frantically scribbling down the beginnings of a thesis on Cultural Landscapes: North American Style. No, far more worrying than 3 hour exams in the heat was the prospect of having to enter the big horrible real world, where your life revolves around work, bills, mortgages and sweaty armpits in your face on the tube as you stand the 40 minute journey home...